The Associate Pastor at our church put a questionnaire in our bulletins a couple weeks ago and I decided to take a few of them a share them here.
1.Â Am I more like Christ today than I was this time last year?
This is the goal and yet I hesitate to say yes.Â I feel so far from the perfection of Jesus some days that to say I am more like Jesus feels slanderous to His precious name.Â I’m not sure as I sit here what the benchmarks would be to judge whether I’m more like Him.Â In some ways I feel like I back-pedaledÂ and others, inched forward.
2.Â Do I love Jesus more today than I did this time last year?
Yes.Â After feeling guilty for so long about not feeling “holy” enough, that is gone and I feel a true, growing love for the Son of God who gave His life for me.
3.Â What do I believe are the biggest obstacles to my growth as a Christian?
Worrying about what others think of me.Â It’s a perennial issue for me.Â I worry people will think I’m not holy enough.Â I worry others think I’m “too” holy.Â I worry that others think…etc.
4.Â How do I expect to overcome them?
I don’t see it so much as how I’m overcoming, but that God is slowly working a change in me.Â I have been experiencing a change in perspective.Â I guess how I plan to overcome this is by allowing God to change me, purposing to let Him work His will in my life.
5.Â What do I plan to do in this coming year that will help me grow in love for God?
Diligently reading His word.Â Learning more about my Savior, the more I learn, the more I fall in love with Him.
6.Â Do I love with a true sense of purpose– a God-given purpose– or do I simply try to survive from one day to the next?
No.Â In the day-to-day workings of life, I forget that I have a purpose.Â I forget to find my joy in Him and the little gifts He freely gives.Â I want to be more diligent in counting my blessings this year.
Now to round out this look back at 2010, here are two things I learned about myself.
- I engage in some self-sabotaging habits, namely procrastination and junk food binges.Â Both leave me feeling like I can’t get anything done.Â The first because I have no time.Â The second because I have no energy.
- I enjoy hostessing.Â Now that my home doesn’t need a big cleaning before it is ready for company, I enjoy the process of planning and hosting guests immensely.
Now, onto 2011.