An online friend of mine wrote a post recently that got me thinking. I’m quoting very little of her post here, but you can read the whole thing on her blog.
“I have been treading water with my online thing for a bit. I needed to chill a bit and get some direction and have a clear plan of how to move forward, and be very specific in doing so.”
I feel we are in the same boat. It’s been an interesting few years. When we live life the way we “should”, the drudgery of day-to-day action seems overwhelming. I’m finally in a place where I can see some of the talents and gifts God has placed in me and the REASONS for them. I’ve become aware of my flaws in a way that doesn’t leave me feeling worthless. Frustrated sometimes, but not worthless.
For a long time, I simply looked at my flaws and looked for various ways to fix them. I was so frustrated that while I seemed to be doing the right thing, I was getting no where. I was lacking balance though, balance between fixing my flaws and using my strengths. This still is a work in progress, as I’m sure I will always be.
As far as how that relates to blogging, I was wandering aimlessly in this vast internet sea, unsure of where I fit in. I rarely consulted with God on where I should be headed and thus spent a good amount of time spinning my wheels.
This seemed to be the running theme of my way of doing things. I would run in a hundred different directions, all without consulting the map God has laid out for me. I think this past year has finally put me in a spot where I was REALLY tired of this. To the point of desperately needing and wanting change, major change. I thought it would be quick, but that is rarely the case when there are important things and reasons to learn.
“Last month I went to my grandmothers funeral, and I realized there are 3-4 things I am knowledgeable about and can talk with a certain amount of understanding and authority on, anything else, I sit quietly and listen because I donâ€™t know the first thing about it.”
I love this quote. I don’t know why, I can’t really expound upon it. Maybe it’s because I am realizing that I don’t have to be an expert on 400 different things. Also, knowing when to keep one’s mouth shut is priceless and any reminder of that is always timely.
So, where does this leave my blogging? In His hands. I have a lot of posts in this here head, most of which are about my faith, but I have other things that need attention before I can dive in. I can say I’m seeing a light at the end of my tunnel and the things that were drowning me are being removed or tamed. Goodwill, Once Upon a Child, Half Priced Books and the trash can have seen me fairly frequently lately.
I’d love to share more, but alas, I need to go make some smoothies, menu plan and grocery lists.